Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Wow it has been almost three days together!

I cannot believe I have been unable to post until now.... I have met my girl and she is everything I imagined and more! I am a very busy and active mother of a delightful and very personable girl.
We met on Monday and as we went to the civic affairs office at the top of the stairs suddenly there were Chinese women with babies in their arms and the first one was AnnaLeisa. I knew her immediately and we both looked directly in each others eyes. It was her chin I knew! I broke down sobbing and could do so now again. I had to then go in a room with the other parents and wait. I knew she was across the hall so tried to catch glimpses but alas had to wait. And then she arrived... howling and screaming there was as much tears as snot... gosh she went for it.
I was able to take her into the nannies and have them hold her again and the head one must have had a connection with AnnaLeisa as she would hold her and speak very loudly and rock her vigorously.... Like I will never be able to...
She then gradually pointed to me and said Mama Mama and would touch me and bring her close to me. It was like the kindest most gradual transfers. One could see AnnaLeisa knew what was going on and she fought tooth and nail... Strong nature this little girl.
Then we hung around amidst wailing babies and parents. So great Mom and Dad and Colin were here and to share. They were very moved.
After awhile we went on the bus and AnnaLeisa slept. Once her and I were in the room alone awhile she sat and played with a single toy for a long time. I did get a smile or two out of her... it was a very sweet time together and as long as I provide some curiousity for distraction she shifts her emotion.
She slept from 8-7 am and soundly too.....
(Her mom on the other hand has not been sleeping since Edmonton Yikes).
The next day was overwhelming paper work at the Civic Affairs office and really hard acutally. AnnaLeisa did have more time with her nanny and again another transferring so to speak. Broke my heart to see her reaching for the women she knew so well...
And today she is really blossoming... smiling and laughing and all round just curious. It is now 10 pm on Wed and just before bed she decided she could walk so she is into and throwing everything. All new behavour and a true testament to resilience.
I love her... she called me Moma on the second day.... (thanks to the Nanny). And she really does know who I am to her. She comes to me for everything and I console and love her as much as possible. I am singing to her and somehow imagining wings from my heart that emerge from my chest to cacoon and to hold her and that she feels this support completely.
good night....
lovingly
Karla and AnnaLeisa....
we'll see about some photos soon. Hard here as very busy.

10 comments:

Linda said...

So good to hear how things are going. Boy does that bring back memories -- Leizhou girls are feisty ones! Xian also took first steps on day three... I look forward to seeing eventual pictures!
Linda and Xian
p.s. ACS has my referral, but I'm still waiting -- will email when I have some news. Hopefully before the next century?

Linda said...

So good to hear how things are going. Boy does that bring back memories -- Leizhou girls are feisty ones! Xian also took first steps on day three... I look forward to seeing eventual pictures!
Linda and Xian
p.s. ACS has my referral, but I'm still waiting -- will email when I have some news. Hopefully before the next century?

Linda said...

So good to hear how things are going. Boy does that bring back memories -- Leizhou girls are feisty ones! Xian also took first steps on day three... I look forward to seeing eventual pictures!
Linda and Xian
p.s. ACS has my referral, but I'm still waiting -- will email when I have some news. Hopefully before the next century?

Linda said...

Yikes -- sorry for the triple post, must have been Blogger's excitement about it all! Sheesh.... Hoping you have a lovely day in Guangzhou!

Mommy-To-Channing said...

Ohhh Karla CONGRATS on having AnnaLeisa in your arms finally!! Reading your post brought tears to my eyes...I know I will be just like you when I'm standing there waiting for Channing. I'm so glad to hear that everything is working out for the both of you. AnnaLeisa will be fine, she has a Moma that loves her very much and she knows it...DOUBLE HAPPINESS!!! Thanks for posting from China and keep us updated!! I would love to see pictures if you can!!

Zizi said...

Karla!!!!! Dear friend - i am so happy! so sweet to read your stories of your meeting - my heart is bursting. You two seem to be doing well within it all. I hope you're reading these messages and know that we are with you there - thinking of you every day and so anticipating seeing you both.

i love you

gsonic said...

hey sis! so great to hear from you. We've been anxious to know how you and AnnaLeisa are faring. It sounds wonderful. So much emotion...and so little sleep.
AnnaLeisa- ask Mom for lots of hugs and love from Aunt Diana and Uncle Gary and your new cousins, Derek and Brett.

Can't wait to see you.

Daryl & Julie said...

Julie and I are so excited for the both of you. What amazing initial moments you have shared. I expect the videographers captured it all and we can not wait to share in the experience. We are also excited about when we can actually be together. Soon! Until then we send our love and many big hugs. Love Daryl & Julie.

Linda said...

And no, it's not really me again -- just being the messenger for May Finstad who wanted to say that she's been thinking about you and AnnaLeisa since you left
Edmonton and am so happy to hear that you are both doing well. "I hope for herto have many good sleeps ahead. I love reading about her journey. Love to them both... see you at home soon."

And my public service announcement (hee-hee) for those wondering how they can post -- just go to blogger.com and set up an ID and a login and then you are good to go!

best,
Linda

Cari said...

So thrilled for you!! Your daughter seems amazing - can't wait until I'm there picking up my little one too!

cari
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